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Your absence has gone through me

Like thread through needle.

Everything I do is stitched with it’s color

Separation – BY W.S. Merwin

I miss you Dad.

I miss you very badly today.

Yes my much talked exam is around the corner (3 days later) and still my preparation is, hmm… I don’t know. My first exam is on Advertisement/Public Relations so I believe, at least, I could elaborate and write answers on my own experiences too. But don’t know what will happen.
And to add on exam problem, I am now greatly affected with the cold. (Thanks to my nephew) My one nose is completely filled with the mucus (yuck) and it’s hard to breathe with only one nostril. And slowly the virus is affecting my other half too. I am very prone to common cold, and tried to take necessary precautions too, but the virus won. *Angry gurrrr*

Since this exam is very important for me and I need to pass it anyhow, I will have to concentrate on my studies very hard (Ohh, will miss the Euro Finals). I don’t know what I should do with this cold.

Further note: May be I won’t be able to post for few days. Will miss you guys.

Looks like what drives me crazy
Don’t have no effect on you –
But I’m gonna keep on at it
Till it drives you crazy too

Evil – By Langston Hughes

Describes my state at love field. *Sigh*

Everyone is running after six pack abs. Before Shahrukh Khan made headlines with his six packs abs, people used to talk about V-shaped body only. Or at least “how many packs have you got?” wasn’t used to be the question. Now not only guys, girls are also interested in six packs it seems. I was with my one female friend. We were supposed to go outside. So I began changing my Tee in front of her (I don’t feel shame in front of her ). And suddenly she pointed at my tummy and said,

Her: Jeez, you got one pack abs

Me: (Confused) What?

Her: Look at your tummy. Its increasing day by day.

Me: I know. I need to work out but I don’t have one pack as you claim. I have got 2 pack (trying to defense myself)

Her: (Laughing) Ha, two packs?

Me: Yeah, at least my belly is not big as AS (my another good friend).

Her: (Still laughing) I agree but it’s going to be.

Me: (Feeling irritated) Stop this.

Her: You know what, because of you one pack abs, you will remain single. No girl would love to date you.

Me: (Shocked) What?

Her: Yeah, look at yourself, silly

Me: Hello, I am cute and handsome enough. Anyway, why I need to date girls?

Her: (Laughing) What? Why you need to date girls? Are you planning to date boys? Aye you gay?

Me: (Shivering inside) What? (Acting like shocked) You!!! I meant I am happy being single now. I don’t have to be in relationship at this moment. Okay. Now stop kidding about my orientation. (Feeling inside like screaming: Yes I am. you got problem with that? And yeah, I would date boys, so??)

Her: You don’t have to be so defensive.

Me: Now stop this.

Her: Ok baba. Don’t have to be so rude. I will stop. But please work on your tummy.

Me: (Wondering to myself) Is my tummy so big? NO it’s not visible when I wear free size t-shirt so it’s not big. But yeah, it needs work out and should be in shape. And about relationship, is it because of tummy I am still single?

I tried to console myself. Hell NO. No. NO.

Nepal is marred by the strikes. Till yesterday students were on strike demanding 50% discount in public transport. Then the transport entrepreneurs went to strike saying fares raised by governments are unacceptable. Now joining them petroleum dealers are also on strike demanding easy distribution of fuels. Then the petroleum tankers are going on strike demanding raise on fares.
I haven’t mentioned other smaller scale strikes that cripple traffic.
Oh, what is happening to Nepal. Everyone seems to be announcing strike to press for their demand. After overthrowing monarchy and establishing Republic, I had hoped everything would be easy going. But, alas!
In this new Nepal, everyone is so concerned about their rights, they are forgetting to respect others’ right. I had heard little knowledge is dangerous, now seeing it too. Political parties only taught public about importance of rights but forgot to teach them about duties. See, this is the condition.
Yesterday I was forced to walk around an hour to reach office and another hour to be back home because there was strike. Today was also same. I am too tired of walking such long distance, that too alone.
I think I should be on strike too. No more works, and no more walking please!

It was tale time for me. My nephew was insistin me to tell him stories since many days but i was always too busy. But today he gave up to my excuses. And also it was loadshadin time so i had nothin tht wud keep me occupied. So i decided to treat him but problem was i forgot most of the tales. I remembered few but he knew them already. After much thought i made some on my own. They were remix n fusion of many frm Cindrella to Shrek. And after i finished he asked me to study more stories n try to make me promise to tell him every day. Today’s child are so smart. With babblin talks n sweet smile, they try to take over you. I know i had no option tht to give up. Now i hav to tell him new stories everyday. Whoa! Hav to read all n hope it would be sweet nostalgia hehe

Whoa! Today I tried to make chowmein, Chinese fried noodles. My mom was preparing to make it, but I intervened. I was feeling like showing my cooking skills to my mom and impress her. I was hoping my mom would support me some financial help this time. (Its been almost 3 years since I asked her money last time, after I got my job, I feel so uneasy to ask her monitory help.)
Tears rolled down when chopping the onions. I cut all the vegetable needed for the dish, and even boiled the stick noodles. When everything was ready, I started showcasing my skills. But nothing turned out as I wished for. I forgot to apply oil to noodles which made it very sticky. All the noodles were jotted to each other. I tried to fry it, but I don’t what happened. The result was mess. And it didn’t look like fried chowmien at all.
The taste was also funny but nobody made any comments over my cooking skill. After all, it was unskill that made it so. I just laughed and ate it barely. (I couldn’t throw it because I spent so much time making it). Everyone ate it. And my sister requested me not to take lead in cooking again. Aaahhhh!!!

Now I remember one Nepali song: Jham Jham Pani paryo Ashar ko Sanjh, Pani Sangai Bajna Thalyo Makai ko Paat (It’s raining hard in the evening of Ashar….and with rain, leaves of maize are playing sounds)

Yes, It’s raining outside. And I believe rainy season is most wonderful season of all (Don’t know how many times I mention this ) You hear lots of music in the nature. The blissful sound you hear when the rain contacts with leaves or street, the sound frogs and crickets make, the aroma of soil. It’s just wonderful. And even more wonderful is clear and joyful environment you see after every rainfall. It seems like heaven sweeps the dirt in air. The sky turns velvet or vanilla and it’s wonderful sight. Even you can see rainbows

And not only that, reactions of people making their way is also very wonderful. Some enjoying the rain, some trying not to get wet and the rush, this makes environment so alive, people hustling and bustling to make way out. And another wonderful moment of rain is, the moment you get home and hold coffee/tea and watch the rain drops falling from heaven. Ahh! You feel like heaven has ushered the rain just for you.

And I think rainy season is very good for heartbreaks too. No one can differentiate whether you are crying or enjoying. So this whole hide-and-seek is wonderful. (I know I shouldn’t have mentioned about heartbreak at this time, but I just couldn’t hold it.)

Enjoy the rain. I am, and will have good sleep because, it’s music in the air and what you need more???

Note: Ashar = A month of eastern calendar. Ashar ranges from mid June to Mid July.

Am I turning out so complaining? I was reading my blog and I just sensed that. But in reality, am the guy who laughs too often, enjoys every single moment and still, in blog why am I so Devdas kinda?
See here again, am complaining. I should stop complaining!
On brighter note: I got new shoes It’s brand is Levis hehehe. I know it’s another Chinese produced sneaker but the cost was, high. The cute shopkeeper was claiming it’s authentic. But at last, I bought it though it was beyond my budget planning. I bought it by two reasons:

1. I liked the shoes.
2. The shopkeeper was cute and he was good talker.

I know am shopaholic and whenever I have money, I spend on clothes or shoes (and surprisingly, my wardrobe is still empty ) My friends always scold me for spending money on clothes and shoes, alas! if they understand my pain. But in reality, I don’t have good clothes. I don’t know how. Whenever I have to go somewhere, I don’t find that clothes that defines me. I know I spend money on clothes, but where do clothes go, hmmmm don’t know.
But it feels good to spend money on accessories