tick…tock…. questions….

definitely things are not going well… i am feeling like: i can’t handle black and white picture of world according to Nick.

I feel something deep inside me is trying to fight out… is he the only one who is suffering??
i have begun to question!!!

And questions are not good

the b’day post

another year gone… a year older… a year wiser

had wonderful celebration: away from everyone back home but still with new friends…. had small gathering party…. a wonderful cake… and my friends got me in surprise ambush.

In the morning, when i was still sleeping, they made nice cake out of bread and cheese and cream and all… and i was called in another pretext, gave me cake as soon as i cut it: they attacked me with eggs, the same cake, water balloon… and i had to run… and i ran

Now crossed the mark 23: hope next year would be as great as previous one… praying and wishing for one application: i wish if i would be called, even if just for interview.

travelling around The Hague

No, i don’t have any pictures of The Hague, my camera sucked… and not only mine but my friend’s camera too. Sogot very, very few pictures to show you guys.

But nevertheless, enjoyed the Hague so much. Had wonderful Nepali lunch at Nepali family, my friend’s relative. His child was so cute and so chweet….  In fact, food there made me miss my home and then the great shopping began. I got a bag full of clothes and spend precious 3 hours at the malls. Then we headed for the beach.

For the first time in my life, i saw the beach. Yes, first time! Sun had already gone away making room for moon. The temperature was must be around 8 or so and the water was icy cold. But still, i walked on the beach, played with cold. And i wrote Nick’s name on the sand and the wave took it away. My friend told me, if the wave takes away the name, your wishes will come true. Lets see: finger’s crossed

But don’t ask me where was the ICJ court or The Royal Palace: I wasn’t so interested in them, i was interested in shopping so result, all i could see was malls and malls and yeah: the parliament. It was a wonderful time, and now time is coming for the Paris. And I shouldn’t forget my camera

and i know, am talking about weather so much. But for the last time, i would say: GOODBYE AUTUMN!!

P.S. the beach picture is not mine but the below one is

another rant: from heart

No this is not another post from Europe.

I just discovered that my office colleague is bitching about me, and trying to potray as a lazy gay!

If i were back home, i would have punched him right at his nose…but since i can’t do anything here. Grhhh :angry, really angry:

But why is he so curious about my orientation? He said: He (that is I)  talks to boys over phone pretending talking to girls.  I am scared (and laugh continues) (and my supervisor laughs)

Hello, no matter how many makeover you go through, your looks will always disgust me, stupid dog!

the amazing amsterdam

i know i promised to uplaod pictures quiet earlier, but dunno why i became late to uplaod the pics. but finally here are some…. i had to fight with the wordpress pics uplaoding system, so couldn’t upload many… but still, managed

The famous red light district

people confused where to go

the tower of liberation….

the canal cruise of amsterdam

Red Lights are ON

finally, i managed to visit the famous red light district of Amsterdam

Amsterdam is such a wonderful place. Canal cruising was great fun…. seeing the city through water, one of my best tour. Saw gay monument, wanted to go there but couldn’t find the way once we were on land.

Red zone is such a wonderful place… too many sex….  no restriction, wonderful river side and beauty….  There were many gay clubs and toy stores too. wanted to go inside and check out, but my friend was feeling a bit uncomfortable being inside the gay club despite all the adventure, we missed the sex museum but had tiring cruising of sex toy stores. hehe i too got something :wink, wink:

I loved that place… everything’s so cool…. i must go there again and i will try to manage the time for it.

but also felt  bad seeing those girls…. i wonder how they feel standing infront of the door and calling everyone, i.e. for long long hour… girls were staying at door and glass bar like product in mall… some were having good business… many were empty. I wonder how they would feel having sex every time some one demands…. with around 50 euro each time, how much they could manage to earn? they could be happy being that way, but still…. zaalim duniya yeasi hi chalti hai

P.S. since my camera is with friend, don’t have pictures now. I will upload ASAP (anyway, you got an excuse to come again  )

europe’s new syndrome

all right, i announced earlier, i am at europe…to asnwer to rebel, am at Amsterdam now… the weather is chilly and so unpredictable…. rain and sunshine are like two sides of coin, don’t know what comes when….

as a result of changed weather, i am suffering from cold…. having difficulty in breathing…and in addition: have fear as well. If i get fever and sore throat, here’s the rule that (probably everywhere in europe) s/he be isolated in a room without doctor. I hope i won’t get fever

this is also the reason why i can’t make regular updates…. i promise, asap i get fine, i will  update

but for now: here’s some pic taken at Hilversum, a town 16 miles from Amsterdam… nice and serene place

yay to Europe

have already reached and now settled… will write more later with pictures

To. BM: i guess i won’t be able to come … seriously

packing….

Getting ready for the trip…. packing….. checking last minute details…. meeting people i would miss…..

Am tired

Spam, WordPress and me myself

I am angry with wordpress. Why? My comments are being marked as spams!! See your spam folder, there might be my comments lying somewhere!

I don’t know what’s wrong with it, it was fine few days back (err… weeks probably) and suddenly?

As per their advice, i wrote abt it to Akismet (the guilty one) explaining my problem. Hopefully i will get their response and solution soon :fingers crossed:

All right, i decided to add little updates about myself: I decided not travel to Delhi few days earlier than my scheduled trip. Why? There’s no one who would help me or accompany me in sight seeing, helping me click some pictures and share dinner with me… Instead, i will roam around my dear Kathmandu and have fun with my friends.

The work is going over my head and pressure of studies is also piling up. I have to do few assignments and give presentations but i won’t be here. So now i need to butter-up my professor explaining things… Lets see how it goes! And about work: My boss wants to know my commitment after i come back. I am thinking about making it loud and clear: If my position and roles are reviewed, I won’t mind working but if not, then….